Yay! I Did It.

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Victory.”

Cheering-people

Removing obstacles

I needed to make sure there was less distraction in my home so that I may focus on myself. I had a couple of friends that were staying with me intermittently. I got rid of one of them at a high cost but rather quickly. The other took six months to remove, but at the expense irritation and frustrations that have built up. I am finally free!

Roquefort

The one that took the longest, I think, misunderstood the reason for him leaving. I needed to work on my issues and the side effects of my issues, but with no distractions. I allowed myself to be distracted with helping friends and not trying to hurt their feelings. The longer it took for him to leave, the harder it was going to be to hang out with him under different circumstances. I wanted outside of the home interactions with him, but now I can’t handle that anymore. It is my fault for letting it drag on so long which may me go pass my tolerance level.

I felt like my apartment was taken over by someone else and that I could only suggest things to happen here. I know, again, it was my fault for allowing it, but I became more and more vulnerable to manipulation. Even though I let myself be manipulated, I was so afraid to hurt his feelings. I also had cut out the outside activities with him due to mass interaction in my place.

Kenny

I hadn’t seen him for awhile and wanted to know if he was doing ok. I invited him over one night and it turned into a month. I then started splitting the weeks so that I could have me time. I think he believed there were other men or something else going on other than what I told him. I joined a bill with him and he felt, for some reason, that I was trying to get over on him. I showed the bill and verified his agreement, but he did not agree. We agreed on a time for him to get his things and he was supposed to pay me, unfortunately, has not contacted me since. At least, my connections with him are now over.

New Journey

Now I have disconnected myself mostly from him. I need to try to find me again because I am confused at what I am doing, how I want to look, where I want to go, and so on. I am going to start with cleaning my place the way I want then decorations. Then focus on what I am doing with my life, work or play. Finally, I will focus on what I want to look like to make me happy. I know this sounds crazy, but I let too many people detour me from my goals and aspirations by trying their ways which made me lose track of me. I am excited about this journey, even though I have started late in life.

Working at Home

Work From Home

I wrote this blog on one my other blogs because there was an advertisement in it. I am not sure how ads work on here and I am not sure if this is what I want for this blog. I do want to talk about the post.

Work from home, work at home, work at home moms, and others like this are terms that I have seen all over the net. I believe this is the new norm for people. Working at brick and mortar places may end due to this technology age where you use web conferencing and Skype calls to handle most of your business. I have seen purchases made on tablets and smartphones. Of course, you can put payment buttons in emails or websites from companies like Paypal.

I do some freelancing and contractor work from time to time. I also sell items on eBay and on my website too. I have this blog and I vlog on YouTube as well, but I haven’t quite found anything that will bring in a residual income that I am satisfied with.

I am an Avon rep, but that is really hard work with no car and limited friends that have the same situation. Don’t get me wrong, I remember a few years ago when I had a car and a good paying job I did thrive pretty well until it was too hard for one person to handle. I like the products and the business, but it was setup for you to visit clients at their home to deliver books, take their orders, and deliver their orders. This consists of three visits to their home per transaction. Most of the customers don’t do the internet or electronic devices so it won’t help someone like me out.

I want something where I can do something simple, make a little money, and help others out too. I would love to find something that isn’t a pyramid setup or referral program. Now they call them affiliate programs. These are okay, but you still doing the same thing, you can get residual income by bringing people in as customers or as affiliates. One day I will get a handle on it.

Isolation

I was reading a post from jazzyjenness, Help the Helped and I thought of trying to be alone on purpose. I have days where I want to be alone and drown my sorrows with chocolate and Disney movies. I now have a new challenge keeping bad distractions out of my life.

I have people that want me to stay miserable and broke so they come around tempting me to spend my money or to do things that will jeopardise my living arrangements. So I have decided Isolation will help me with that. I don’t me I won’t call my family from time to time but I am eliminating visitors from my home until I am back on a good track. I binge watch tv shows, YouTube videos, and now I am blogging more than ever.

I will end this by saying I will not shut everyone out but I will keep away from anyone that is destructive to my life. I may keep in touch online but mostly my mom. I don’t know if this is healthy for me but it will help for the time being.

On the Porch

Thank you for the money,

I remembered one day in my homeless life, I needed somewhere to sleep for the night. My boyfriend and I had got in a fight after the shelters were done accepting people. I was walking around with my laptop (my escape from life) in my rolling backpack with added blankets stuffed in tight. On the handle was a thrift store sleeping bag the was small enough to wrap on it. In my other backpack, I had the mummy bag of ten degrees so that I could double up for this cold winter night.

I had previously found this porch in front of a business that was made of tile, It sat across from a pizza place that have pool tables and a bar. There were plenty of people walking up and down the street, but this was the outskirts of the downtown area. Most of the people were either going somewhere or on their way home. It was safe from the normal ruckus in the main downtown a few streets over.

I was lucky that night, I was just settled down with my two picnic blankets doubled up and my mummy bag inside the other sleeping bag. I had everything else including my shoes stuffed in my rolling backpack and it served as my pillow to keep it safe from thieves. Nothing was stolen from me with that setup.

As I started to fall asleep, a group of people came up on their way home for the night and started talking. I was scared at first, but then they all decided to drop money in the corner by my backpack. I started to get up to thank them, but they had already started staggering home. The money was used to get a room for the next night with food.

This is a thank you letter to whom it may concern, to let them know that they are really appreciated.
Porch on 15th

Wrong Assignment!

First of all, I am a master of procrastination! I believe the more I procrastinate on doing my chores the more creative I am at writing blogs. For example, today I have been doing some chores at home but just sat down to post a blog. I realized I botched up my last assignment. I was supposed to use the twitter posts provided and embed them in my post.

I did use Twitter and it was a quote I like, but this is what the assignment in the Writing 101 class asked for. I am sorry if this isn’t a long post, but at least it is the right one.

Think!

Sometimes I don’t think about what I’m about to say and then OOOOPPPsss, I have stuck my foot in my mouth. Here is a quote from someone on Twitter:

Think your thoughts through because the decisions you make… make you.

I have had some confusing thoughts and emotions lately so I am going to be a hermit for awhile and iron them out. I need to clean up my thought process, and my house, to get myself back on track.

You might start to notice some gameplay videos from me, my friends, and fellow gamers. I decided that while I am being a hermit I will learn how to blog and play some video games to escape life or have fun.

No one said life is easy or will show you how to live from your previous experiences. I am taking this one step at a time. I am trying to think before I speak. I will also work on thinking before I write, hopefully, the writing class I am taking will help with that.

This is a pretty short blog, but it is to the point. Think before you start expressing yourself because it may change things.

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ADG Short And Simple Review: Fallout 4

Source: ADG Short And Simple Review: Fallout 4

I love this gameplay. This game keeps you watching and wanting to play yourself. His perspective shows that everyone can play the game, but you must be a true gamer. The graphics are good and it is easy to have plenty of missions to accomplish. I will be posting more of his game plays and reviews on my blog.

ADG Plays Fallout 4 #4: The Road To Oberland And Diamond City

Source: ADG Plays Fallout 4 #4: The Road To Oberland And Diamond City

This is one of the people I follow, because of his commentary and gameplay. I have been following him for awhile and enjoy watching the game. I am a YouTuber myself, but my gameplay is limited to a few games I try. I need someone to show me a way to get myself out there and feel comfortable. I am glad I was able to find him to set an example for me. This is fun. I will watch more of the walkthroughs.

Who Are You Lying To?

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Truth Serum.”

Who Could Use Some Truth Serum?

I have realized some time ago that everyone lies. The problem is some people don’t really know who they are lying to. I think lying to someone about things you are afraid of them knowing is more lying to yourself about how confident you are about it.

Jessup

He thinks that he is awesome and that everyone should just trust everything he says. Although, plenty of things he says is for his own purpose not for the people seeking his advice. He also thinks he understands how people subject to a different class are living a more fulfilling life because they aren’t experiencing the pleasure of having everything they want at the snap of their fingers. It is hard to understand the experience of a class on an economic scale through the eyes of someone else. To walk in someone else’s shoes, you must also change your way of thinking too!

Amos

He thinks that if you say something like people he has experienced in the past you must be lying too. After you have said something to him, he will ask questions that insinuate you are lying and then he will say he isn’t accusing you just asking to better understand the situation. Finally, he will start getting upset whenever the subject is talked about and give sarcastic comments reflecting his disbelief. He will never directly ask if you are lying or if this is true, he will keep the up for years to come. Is he creating a lie to have animosity towards?  Would he love to use this “Truth Serum”?

My thing is that I believe I lie not intentionally because I am afraid to hurt people’s feelings. I know that my feelings should be considered in these circumstances. I am working on not ignoring my feelings when talking to people about myself or the things I do. I do want to hurt anyone else’s feeling, but I must be true to myself. We have an obligation to respect ourselves by not changing who we are to satisfy other people’s thoughts on what we do. Let’s start with asking ourselves, is this the truth or is this what someone else wants to hear.

Bitcoin

bitcoin wallets

What is Bitcoin?

My understanding is that this is a form of currency not connected to banks and you don’t need credit for it. You get a wallet for the bitcoin and choose a secure place for the wallet. You can use your tablet, computer, or smartphone. All you do is send it from peer to peer.

Which Wallet to Use?

I went to Bitcoin and found there are lots to wallets to choose from. I think I have here of one of them, but this system is new to me. I want to participate in this system to get money, but you need to trust the company you get the wallet from. You need to know details of how long they have been working and if there have been any issues.

Which Device?

I use my desktop a lot. I have lost my laptop so I can’t use that. I do have a couple of smartphones. My problem with using my smartphone is that I have lent it out several times. I would have to change my swipe code and other security measures. It probably is time to do that anyway.

Conclusion

There is a lot of information to learn about this new system for currency. I need to find out which wallet, what device to use, and decide whether to use this for my business or not. I am new to this, hopefully, I can find someone that knows more about this.