Chacalit Cafe

Most mornings I wake up and make some coffee. I used to get coffee in downtown at seven-eleven. I would get hazelnut flavored coffee. I would use French vanilla creamer, four of them. I also used the hot chocolate machine and filled a large cup halfway. I filled the other half with the coffee, sugar, and creamer. I stirred the coffee and added marshmallows. This coffee got me started in creating a similar experience at home. Now I can’t stop doing.

A perfect most delicious coffee to start the morning is what I do while I check my emails. I haven’t gone to a coffee shop in years, but I occasionally do join a chatline. I want to try venturing out more, but this coffee thing I do is so great I am afraid to share it. I used to go to coffee shops with my laptop, but I no longer have one. I know it is my  fault, but you either have a desktop or laptop nowadays with a smartphone.

Paris Support: My Contribution

A Visit To Remember

I may not have visited recently, but the visit to Paris was one that I won’t forget. I went on a honeymoon years ago to Paris and London. Paris was my favorite of the trip. I love the pastry shops. I felt like a kid a candy store.

French Pasty

Forgive me of my blurry pictures but this next was right after we arrived in Paris. We had drinks with our guide at the hotel and I was a bit tipsy when I took this picture of Notre Dame.

Notre Dame

I have a few more pictures of my Paris trip, but we did celebrate quite often so I do if  I should post more. I left with a bottle of raspberry liqueur which was so good it lasted a year after we left. I actually went to the Eiffel Tower in the daytime and climbed some steps. I think I eat a cafeteria there. This happened back in 2003 so forgive of the fuzzy details.

Iffle tower

This next picture is of the original Statue of Liberty. Ours was a gift from Paris. I thought that this may be important to everyone.

Statue of Liberty

I posted this blog to show I much I enjoyed my trip and would go again even if there were terrorists. I also visited the Louvre, Versailles, and Avenue des Champs-Élysées. I have a some more pictures, but I thought this should be about how Paris has proven they are an important part of my life.

There is one more thing I would like to mention. I remember as a child in my school that it was required for all students the watch this movie called. “The Red Ballon“. This to me is something Americans posted in children’s heads to remind them the rest of their lives of filmmaking.

Busy Bustop Bench

As I stood on the corner by the bus stop next to my apartment building, some drunk men started arguing with people at the bus stop. There were two guys there. There was an older man that doesn’t live in my building, but his dad does. For this observation, we will call him Juan. The other guy is kind of young and we can call him Jeff.

This bus stop had a green metal bench and smelled of stale beer. There is a garbage can nearby that was full. Trash was all around it and no one seemed to care. This bus stop is near a major intersection, so there is plenty of traffic around. There is a drugstore across the street. A bar and parking lot sits behind the bench. A block away is a 7-11 store. There is a pawn shop on another corner.

Juan I actually have seen him drunk quite a few times. There was a young lady there and she thought Juan might have been having a seizure and she seemed to be talking to someone on the phone. Juan seemed to not really interact much with anyone. Jeff, on the other hand, was talking random things to the young lady. He started by saying “this is what happens in the hood”. She was trying to explain that she live her in this area and if he did he should show some respect for you neighborhood. The argument started to escalate to where another person at the bus stop joined in. There were at least seven people standing at the bus stop. Juan and Jeff hovered around the bench so no one wanted to sit down. This argument finally slowed down when the bus came. There was a wheeled chair coming off, but that didn’t stop Jeff from still arguing and trying fight a couple of the young men there.

I know I was supposed to stay there twenty minutes to record more of what was happening, but I thought it was time to get upstairs to my safe apartment. I do usually don’t mind sitting around recording activity, but this was too intense. An observation post is a bit hard to do.

Another observation post: A Drug Deal Gone Wrong

Yay! I Did It.

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Victory.”

Cheering-people

Removing obstacles

I needed to make sure there was less distraction in my home so that I may focus on myself. I had a couple of friends that were staying with me intermittently. I got rid of one of them at a high cost but rather quickly. The other took six months to remove, but at the expense irritation and frustrations that have built up. I am finally free!

Roquefort

The one that took the longest, I think, misunderstood the reason for him leaving. I needed to work on my issues and the side effects of my issues, but with no distractions. I allowed myself to be distracted with helping friends and not trying to hurt their feelings. The longer it took for him to leave, the harder it was going to be to hang out with him under different circumstances. I wanted outside of the home interactions with him, but now I can’t handle that anymore. It is my fault for letting it drag on so long which may me go pass my tolerance level.

I felt like my apartment was taken over by someone else and that I could only suggest things to happen here. I know, again, it was my fault for allowing it, but I became more and more vulnerable to manipulation. Even though I let myself be manipulated, I was so afraid to hurt his feelings. I also had cut out the outside activities with him due to mass interaction in my place.

Kenny

I hadn’t seen him for awhile and wanted to know if he was doing ok. I invited him over one night and it turned into a month. I then started splitting the weeks so that I could have me time. I think he believed there were other men or something else going on other than what I told him. I joined a bill with him and he felt, for some reason, that I was trying to get over on him. I showed the bill and verified his agreement, but he did not agree. We agreed on a time for him to get his things and he was supposed to pay me, unfortunately, has not contacted me since. At least, my connections with him are now over.

New Journey

Now I have disconnected myself mostly from him. I need to try to find me again because I am confused at what I am doing, how I want to look, where I want to go, and so on. I am going to start with cleaning my place the way I want then decorations. Then focus on what I am doing with my life, work or play. Finally, I will focus on what I want to look like to make me happy. I know this sounds crazy, but I let too many people detour me from my goals and aspirations by trying their ways which made me lose track of me. I am excited about this journey, even though I have started late in life.

Working at Home

Work From Home

I wrote this blog on one my other blogs because there was an advertisement in it. I am not sure how ads work on here and I am not sure if this is what I want for this blog. I do want to talk about the post.

Work from home, work at home, work at home moms, and others like this are terms that I have seen all over the net. I believe this is the new norm for people. Working at brick and mortar places may end due to this technology age where you use web conferencing and Skype calls to handle most of your business. I have seen purchases made on tablets and smartphones. Of course, you can put payment buttons in emails or websites from companies like Paypal.

I do some freelancing and contractor work from time to time. I also sell items on eBay and on my website too. I have this blog and I vlog on YouTube as well, but I haven’t quite found anything that will bring in a residual income that I am satisfied with.

I am an Avon rep, but that is really hard work with no car and limited friends that have the same situation. Don’t get me wrong, I remember a few years ago when I had a car and a good paying job I did thrive pretty well until it was too hard for one person to handle. I like the products and the business, but it was setup for you to visit clients at their home to deliver books, take their orders, and deliver their orders. This consists of three visits to their home per transaction. Most of the customers don’t do the internet or electronic devices so it won’t help someone like me out.

I want something where I can do something simple, make a little money, and help others out too. I would love to find something that isn’t a pyramid setup or referral program. Now they call them affiliate programs. These are okay, but you still doing the same thing, you can get residual income by bringing people in as customers or as affiliates. One day I will get a handle on it.

Isolation

I was reading a post from jazzyjenness, Help the Helped and I thought of trying to be alone on purpose. I have days where I want to be alone and drown my sorrows with chocolate and Disney movies. I now have a new challenge keeping bad distractions out of my life.

I have people that want me to stay miserable and broke so they come around tempting me to spend my money or to do things that will jeopardise my living arrangements. So I have decided Isolation will help me with that. I don’t me I won’t call my family from time to time but I am eliminating visitors from my home until I am back on a good track. I binge watch tv shows, YouTube videos, and now I am blogging more than ever.

I will end this by saying I will not shut everyone out but I will keep away from anyone that is destructive to my life. I may keep in touch online but mostly my mom. I don’t know if this is healthy for me but it will help for the time being.

On the Porch

Thank you for the money,

I remembered one day in my homeless life, I needed somewhere to sleep for the night. My boyfriend and I had got in a fight after the shelters were done accepting people. I was walking around with my laptop (my escape from life) in my rolling backpack with added blankets stuffed in tight. On the handle was a thrift store sleeping bag the was small enough to wrap on it. In my other backpack, I had the mummy bag of ten degrees so that I could double up for this cold winter night.

I had previously found this porch in front of a business that was made of tile, It sat across from a pizza place that have pool tables and a bar. There were plenty of people walking up and down the street, but this was the outskirts of the downtown area. Most of the people were either going somewhere or on their way home. It was safe from the normal ruckus in the main downtown a few streets over.

I was lucky that night, I was just settled down with my two picnic blankets doubled up and my mummy bag inside the other sleeping bag. I had everything else including my shoes stuffed in my rolling backpack and it served as my pillow to keep it safe from thieves. Nothing was stolen from me with that setup.

As I started to fall asleep, a group of people came up on their way home for the night and started talking. I was scared at first, but then they all decided to drop money in the corner by my backpack. I started to get up to thank them, but they had already started staggering home. The money was used to get a room for the next night with food.

This is a thank you letter to whom it may concern, to let them know that they are really appreciated.
Porch on 15th

Wrong Assignment!

First of all, I am a master of procrastination! I believe the more I procrastinate on doing my chores the more creative I am at writing blogs. For example, today I have been doing some chores at home but just sat down to post a blog. I realized I botched up my last assignment. I was supposed to use the twitter posts provided and embed them in my post.

I did use Twitter and it was a quote I like, but this is what the assignment in the Writing 101 class asked for. I am sorry if this isn’t a long post, but at least it is the right one.

Think!

Sometimes I don’t think about what I’m about to say and then OOOOPPPsss, I have stuck my foot in my mouth. Here is a quote from someone on Twitter:

Think your thoughts through because the decisions you make… make you.

I have had some confusing thoughts and emotions lately so I am going to be a hermit for awhile and iron them out. I need to clean up my thought process, and my house, to get myself back on track.

You might start to notice some gameplay videos from me, my friends, and fellow gamers. I decided that while I am being a hermit I will learn how to blog and play some video games to escape life or have fun.

No one said life is easy or will show you how to live from your previous experiences. I am taking this one step at a time. I am trying to think before I speak. I will also work on thinking before I write, hopefully, the writing class I am taking will help with that.

This is a pretty short blog, but it is to the point. Think before you start expressing yourself because it may change things.

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ADG Short And Simple Review: Fallout 4

Source: ADG Short And Simple Review: Fallout 4

I love this gameplay. This game keeps you watching and wanting to play yourself. His perspective shows that everyone can play the game, but you must be a true gamer. The graphics are good and it is easy to have plenty of missions to accomplish. I will be posting more of his game plays and reviews on my blog.